Why Are the Right Things So Difficult?

I know that I need to eat healthier, and less. I need to workout more, which usually means being at the gym by 5am. Reading my Bible is a necessity.
I Love, I mean LOVE, to eat. I do not eat in moderation (CLEARLY). I don't want to eat in moderation. But I need to. It is SO hard to put the fork down when there is cake around. I don't want to stop after I have had 5 double stuf oreos dipped in milk. There are few things more satisfying than a happy full belly! I mean really! But, if I want to get rid of this excess weight (aka FAT) that I am carrying around, I have to change my thinking on this. "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels." Right? I wouldn't KNOW!!!!! But I want to find out!
It is just so dang hard to do the right thing!!!!!
I feel so much better every time that I make it to the gym and workout. Why do I skip days (that sometimes turn into weeks and months)???? Why??? Why can't I make myself remember that feeling of strength and accomplishment and vibrancy when I finally decide to stop playing the "snooze-button" game and turn the alarm off? 
Working out and going to church are very similar. They are always the right thing to do, but sometimes you just want to stay in bed. But once you have gone to church or finished a workout you never regret it!
I am on a journey to lose at least 30 of these excess fat pounds by the time I turn 40 in March. I have been logging my food and exercise at http://www.loseit.com/ . It is a really cool site/App for you smart phone. But when I got on the scale after 2 weeks, it had not moved anywhere but UP!!!! Grrrrrr!!!! But I will not give up. I will keep on doing the next right (even though difficult) thing, just because I know it is what I need to do!

What I Feel vs. What I Know....(today, at least)

O God,

I feel so depleted.

I feel empty.

I feel as though I am withered.

I feel that if this is all there is, what is the point.

I feel alone.

I feel forgotten.

I feel like walking away.

But,

I KNOW that you are my sustenance.

I KNOW that when I am empty YOU fill me.

I KNOW that you are the LIVING WATER to replenish me.

I KNOW that there is a PRIZE and I must press on toward the goal.

I KNOW that YOU are my EVER-PRESENT HELP IN TIME OF NEED.

I KNOW that YOU love me with an EVERLASTING LOVE.

I KNOW there is nowhere I can go that is hidden from YOU.

and

My HOPE is in YOU!

Kindapping, Circuses, and Vampires, Oh MY!

So, this has been a great couple of months of reading for me! I took an online summer class, which started of the roll. I read this great book about a 14 year old boy that began a 40 year journey of Schizophrenia. It was such a great read and very insightful into the world of mental ilness.
I also read:
 The Stranger Beside Me, by Ann Rule. This was the story of Ted Bundy, serial killer. Fascinating!
There were a couple other books for the class that I merely got through to write papers!
After the class was over, the fun began!!!!!!! The first book that I read FOR ENJOYMENT was:
 I super loved this book!!!! Such a great love story and who knew what went on behind the scenes of the circus...OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!! I haven't seen the movie yet, and I am not sure why! I need to get on that!
Next up......
I saw the movie before I read the book and I was not disappointed with either! I had heard about this book like 2 years ago and have wanted to read it. Finally got to it and I loved it so much! Each character evokes such strong emotions!
After this, I turned back to non-fiction for:
This tragic book is just seriously heartbreaking!!!! This woman grew up under horrible conditions under unthinkable circumstances. She does get rescued but has a long road of recovery to walk. My heart was broken when I finished because I just really want for her to know Jesus. I am praying for her!!!!
After this I took a little break from reading, as I tend to get consumed with it.
AND....I went on a girls weekend in September with 2 friends. One friend convinced me to watch the 3 Twilight movies, which I have sworn NEVER to watch and especially NEVER to read the books. Not because I have anything against vampires and werewolves, but because I knew I would get SUCKED in. Well.... I did. In a big way!
 
Right away in the first movie I was hooked. I knew that I was going to have to read all of the books to get all of the details! And I did. It took me approximately 10 days to read 2,490 pages of wonderfulness!!!!! I will blog more about this later, it is brewing in my mind!!!!
The next book that I will be taking on is this 800 page novel:
I will let you know!!!